Thread:Argali1/@comment-26210095-20151105022640/@comment-26184570-20151105204548

Patrick.vtap wrote: Ok. Seriously though, it's all in the mind. Haters gonna hate, but you control your mind, not outside events. Realize this, and you will find strength. I know everything about this. I know how petty the subjects of my deppresion are. I know the chemical cause of deppresion. I know that I am worried for (almost) nothing. I know that there are people who have it far less fortunate than me. The thing is, every problem I have is because I have this monster in me. It is always searching for something better. No matter what I do or know, that monster always feels incontent. It rears it's ugly head in everything. That means that when I eat, I need to find something better, and as a result, I don't feel comfortable taking my shirt off in public (even though I am barely above normal). For the same reason, I am not happy with my height, or my looks, or my personallity, or my voice, or my family's situation, or anything. I can feel real, true happiness still, but, at my default, all there is is the monster, looking and failing to find something better.